Sometimes we don't choose the best people to share our lives with. This song is about one of those people. He didn't treat me very well and left me crying more times than not. In addition, I also found out he was cheating on me. You might say I was a tad angry over the whole thing. By the end of it I felt like a "dirty little secret". I always say something good can come out of any relationship, in the case of this one, I learned a lot and wrote my most popular song to date.
Hold Me Close
This was written during the darkest period in my life. I was all alone and wanted nothing more than someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be ok. This song is a ballad of hope for the love I would one day find and cherish.
Taking the hope from "Hold Me Close" I decided to rise from the ashes and embrace the chances life was sending my way. Not letting my past pain and bruised heart keep me from anything.
A King Instead
Have you ever dreamed of meeting your Prince Charming? Well what if he turned out to be greater than you could have ever dreamed or hoped for. What if you got a king instead? This song toys with this playful idea. Touching on how my past had made me stronger and who I needed to be when my king found me. Sometimes we have to go through hell and back to be the person we are suppose to be.
Perfect as Me
By day I teach voice and piano, to all ages, but generally kids and teenagers. The heartbreaking stories I've been told about how mean kids are to them is a topic very near and dear to my heart. As I was one of those kids. Knowing now that a lot of times people lash out when they are threatened by someone had given me the insight to help them. I might not be able to turn back the clock and heal the wounds of my past, but maybe this song can help anyone who listens to it in knowing that they are perfect just as they are.
Once Upon a Vine
Life’s not like a fairytale. The harsh truth of being an adult. I have always been fascinated by fairytales and thought it would be fun to play with this idea on how they are not realistic in the day to day world.
I came about this song while going for a drive in the desert. The wind playing in my hair, the winding roads ahead of us for miles and the whole time I couldn't be happier. I started writing the lyrics on the drive home that day in my head and let it all come out on paper the next day. I wanted to make it clear that when it's the right person they will love you flaws and all; and that it doesn't matter where you are, but who you're with.
Skeletons and Ghosts
This song is about the pain my mother has caused me. About two years ago she decided to cut all ties with me, for her own personal reasons. Nothing that I did wrong, just that in the life she had made for herself I didn't fit in the picture. One thing about my mother is she has a lot of skeletons in her closets and likes to put them there and never talk about them again. After becoming one of those skeletons in her life I was pained. I tried to write this song in a more abstract way that could appeal to anyone hurt by another.
Forever Yours (Abby’s Song)
A couple of years ago I was asked to sing at a relatives wedding. I thought in addition to singing the songs she and her groom had requested, I would write them their very own love song and surprise them with it. A year later I had recorded it and made a little video with all of their wedding pictures and gave it to them as a one year present. I felt honored to sing at their wedding and to see the love between these two beautiful people.
Last year I was hiking Flat Iron on a perfect day where the temperature wasn't too hot or too cold. As I looked out onto the cityscape in the distance I noticed they looked like jagged teeth. Playing off the same type of emotion as in Winding Road, this time using the metaphor of hiking up a mountain I created this song.
About a year ago I was asked to write a song about success for an upcoming event. I thought long and hard about what success meant to me. Every time I gave it thought one thing always kept coming to the surface: failure. How anyone famous who is considered a success had failed so many times. It's from these mistakes and failures that we are able to achieve greatness.
This is the last song I wrote for this album. I had no idea it would become the title track.
As some of you know I was being scouted by a local record label, which is usually an amazing opportunity that can lead to bigger and better deals. I was excited, my big break was coming.
They seemed to really love what I was doing. That was until we went into the studio. I won't bore you with the bitter details, just know that each time I left, I left in tears.
I learned the hard lesson of, they like to break you to remake you. Why they feel the need to do so, I'll never know. What I do know is I caught on to their game and stopped it before it would eventually break me. After one of these horrid days in the studio with them I wrote this song in one sitting, it just poured out of me. When I was done I knew in my heart that I had just written the title track to the album.